Two things I've realized as of late...

Love problems. Everyone's got 'em in one form or another. And for the past few months, people have been telling me theirs. Don't ask me why everyone turns to the neighborhood cynic for advice...but I do try to listen as best I could, and I guess that's mostly what they need. (And every now and then a good kick in the butt to get them to their senses...aaah, with friends like me, who needs enemies?haha).

Anyhow, as the title implies, the two things I've realized were a by-product of these late night sob story sharing sessions...or whatever it is you want to call them. Actually, I've come to several realizations, but not all of them I can talk about here. Go figure.

I'm not a big fan of long distance relationships. I just don't think they work out. It all boils down to three 3 issues(well at least what comes to mind right now): trust, communication, and distance(time and geography). The first two are just too hard to come by these days and even if you had both, if you're too far for too long, it just dies(although I am surprised to find out that there is a small part in me that objects). But thinking about it, I realized I am in one. And it doesn't become more "long distance" than this. I realize, i have been faithful (i guess...to a point). If not to a person, then at least to the idea of that person. In the realm of decisions on relationships, from love to lust to loneliness and all the things in between, I keep "her" in mind. If one can keep faithful in a situation of waiting and uncertainty, how hard can it be to be faithful when it is finally there? I'm guessing it would be a cinch.

As for the other realization...

Well, we all know how hard it is to say those 3 letter words. Yeah, those words. Yeah. hard. But, I think (think lang naman)there's one other thing harder to say. "He/she loves me." Yeah. I realized, that's one thing a lot of people find much harder to say, considering if they intend to say it seriously. And when they do, people who hear it probably go "Talaga?". If they don't say it, they at least think it. And to a certain degree, people are probably generally unsure if they are really loved or if they even deserve it. And something I observe is that people who do say these things with some level of conviction risk recieving the judgment of being overly presumptuous. Ha! and people say I'm cynical. But then again, maybe there is some reason to the doubt. People aren't readers of the mind or the heart. And I guess, the spoken word over time has been taking a beating when it comes to sincerity. Anyway, to those who know what it is to be loved...look me up, I need to hear new (happier) stories. I need to hear em badly.

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"Lying is done with words and also with silence."- Adrienne Rich