What's up lately with all the "reality" dating shows on tv?(And what's up with me actually watching them?haha). Yes, i have to admit that I do find them entertaining, but only because it gives me something to laugh or gripe about. It really is hilarious. You won't believe to what lengths the guys and girls go through just to land a date or get chosen by some girl or guy. Instead of being the "supposed" search for true love that every program of the like confesses to be, in the end, it just ends up being a game where I think the main factors that play out revolve mainly on their personal egos. Instead of worrying who their potential partners are, they seem to worry more about how not to "not get picked".

The common m.o. of most of these programs is that it involves one male or female then a couple of people of the opposite sex(sometimes even dozens of them). Then you mix them up some place and the circus begins. The funniest scene for me at one time would probably be of a guy actually getting naked in front of the girl thinking that his "package" would impress her and somehow make her choose him. But things didn't end as he expected and the girl chose the other guy. He actually went into a fit and started kicking and throwing chairs and salad dressings all over the place. I don't think you can really blame him, he just had a girl turn down his "package" on national tv. Sadly though, his ego did not plummet to earth as I hoped it would.

Another funny instance(and slightly disturbing) would be how two girls were competing for a guy's vote. To them, the path to true love involved who was better at torrid kissing(on the first date no less with someone who's practically a stranger) and as to who was better at gyrating their @$$e#. Note to women: Yes, he will be seriously thinking about you if you pull off this stunts quite well. But that kind of thinking would happen between his legs and not between the ears. But then again, nowadays, I'm seriously doubting the "thinking between the legs" thing to be a solely male phenomenon.

Several instances spring to mind, but basically i think you guys catch my drift. Maybe it's just American culture. Or maybe I'm just too conservative...kinda. But I try to think about it and its really sad. People on these type of shows only seem to talk about what they want. She wants the guy to do this, he wants her to do that. She's looking for this, he's looking for that. He couldn't do this, she couldn't do that...blah blah blah. Want, want, want, take, take, take. But hardly any of them even consider what they can actually offer or give to the other person. Personally, I think love is more about giving. Sure, a healthy relationship is give and take...but it shouldn't be anything like a business transaction. All I'm saying is, you know it's love when giving is your primary concern regardless of whether or not you get anything back in return. And probably, how the other party gives or takes would simply show if the two of you are on the same page. But love should never really be something that depends on anyone else but yourself(why do I have a nagging feeling that I'll just take back these words someday...?) Waah! Enough blabbering about this.

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A week ago, i found myself walking around Makati for a considerably long distance. I love walking...especially at night time, but I've somewhat cut the habit coz I tend to bump into strange characters whenever I do(within UP). Anyway, I haven't done it in a long time so i found it a treat to explore the city streets of Makati. And the buildings themselves were works of art which was an added treat...I love shiny things and glass. Who doesn't? seeing people in their suits and office clothes just made me remember that as a child, I always thought that by the age I am now...I'd be one of them. No, it wasn't a depressing thought. I was just...thinking. Inside, i'm just like a kid...i still try to imagine what kind of office I will work in, will i have my own office, what will my building look like? And it gets me excited just thinking about it. I'm glad that that part of me isn't dead yet. I guess, in some little way...I still have faith in things.

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Annoying...
Hmmm...I'm in the mood to diss some people but would rather not. I'll just have to take deep breaths and not try to think too much. It's just bothersome to be...nevermind

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I am finally sleepy... a bit. But before I hit the hay, I just gotta write down something that's been running around my mind for no particular reason...ahh no, nevermind...too sleepy, hehe