Things are quiet in UP, being Holy week and all. Things are going well since I'm finally in the process of throwing up all the junk that's been filling up my room for the past few years. I'm a bit slow at it though. You know how it is, throwing out stuff is never that easy, especially if some of them reminds you of one thing or another. Some people might not see me as the sentimental type, but I am. I keep so many useless things that clutter up space. Say for example, a bunch of tickets to concerts, events and plays I've gone to, old notebooks with scribblings and drawings I did because I wasn't paying attention in class, even some fancy hotel paper or freebie from somewhere from some days/nights I'd want to remember. And I can't help reminiscing when I sift through old letters and pictures. I'm sure you guys know what I mean.
Anyway, I'm still not done and I realized I was hungry at around 9pm earlier. All the shops around UP were already closed and there were no jeepneys either. The campus actually looked like a ghost town. But I was hungry, so I had no choice but to walk. So I did just that...all the way to Katipunan. Still, things were pretty much quiet, and the only shops that were open were Shakey's and McDonalds. And I run into rowelle of all people, he was wearing something pambahay. So he tells me he's actually been living around Katipunan for about a month, we chitchat for a while in the middle of the street (there were no cars anyway), then part ways.
Days like these,you can't help but just think about things. It's not like you have a choice in the matter. But some thoughts are best kept to yourself I guess. Happy Easter to everyone anyway.
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"If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent Him."
-Voltaire
There has always been something in silence that seduced me. The quiet things somehow seem more moving, more potent. So much stays in the realm of the unsaid, and after everything else, still so much would remain when we could say all that we can.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Saturday, March 19, 2005
It ends tonight...
I've always wanted to say something like that, hehe. Well, I'm just talking about my stay as an officer in the club known as UNESCO UPD. After 4 consecutive semesters of being the Internals head (acting head on the 1st sem), I think it's time to throw in the towel. It's probably time to look for other things to cause this ol' canucklehead(feeling!:P) some undue stress...preferably the kind of stress that pays, haha. I guess the org can use some new bloods too, I feel spent up. To be quite honest, I've felt like exploding at times, to go off in one of my moods...something some friends of mine would call "the vibe". Something I must be congratulated for, hehe, I've never really held off my vibe for this long...but it does take a lot of conscious effort. But the vibe in actuality is still one of the kinder manifestations of my angst, so people are lucky if thats all they get. But dang it's hard to keep cool these days... and even the little things seem to get on my nerves now. Little things like people asking me why I didn't run, if I still can't take a spot in the execom...and lines like "don't you owe it to the org to..." and stuff like that. I owe the org squat! And frankly, I don't think anyone has the right to ask me to give anything more to this club...save maybe for one other individual. But most times, I just manage to twist my eyebrows a bit and say "I'm tired" as a reply. I do this because I realize they wouldn't really know any better, I tend to keep things to myself afterall(arguably...for very good reasons).
But I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss any of it. The past two years were made very memorable for me because of the people I met and the friends i gained. And in some ways, it saved me from the hole I was in, gave me some things to do and less of the "other" things to think about. But like i said, you gotta know when to leave when it's time to.
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I won't be going home for the Holy Week, so this would be a first for me to spend it alone. Hmm, after this...maybe I should try experiencing Christmas alone...the one occassion I still haven't tried being on my own, haha. I'm kidding of course. or am I? Anyways, I'll look for some stuff to do, and since I'm a little short on dough...some soul searching spend free activities may be in order, hahahaha. Ooooh boy...it's gonna be a long summer.
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"They say that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. If I learn to accept that pain is part of life, I will be better able to endure the difficult times and then move on, leaving the pain behind me." -from Courage to Change
I've always wanted to say something like that, hehe. Well, I'm just talking about my stay as an officer in the club known as UNESCO UPD. After 4 consecutive semesters of being the Internals head (acting head on the 1st sem), I think it's time to throw in the towel. It's probably time to look for other things to cause this ol' canucklehead(feeling!:P) some undue stress...preferably the kind of stress that pays, haha. I guess the org can use some new bloods too, I feel spent up. To be quite honest, I've felt like exploding at times, to go off in one of my moods...something some friends of mine would call "the vibe". Something I must be congratulated for, hehe, I've never really held off my vibe for this long...but it does take a lot of conscious effort. But the vibe in actuality is still one of the kinder manifestations of my angst, so people are lucky if thats all they get. But dang it's hard to keep cool these days... and even the little things seem to get on my nerves now. Little things like people asking me why I didn't run, if I still can't take a spot in the execom...and lines like "don't you owe it to the org to..." and stuff like that. I owe the org squat! And frankly, I don't think anyone has the right to ask me to give anything more to this club...save maybe for one other individual. But most times, I just manage to twist my eyebrows a bit and say "I'm tired" as a reply. I do this because I realize they wouldn't really know any better, I tend to keep things to myself afterall(arguably...for very good reasons).
But I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss any of it. The past two years were made very memorable for me because of the people I met and the friends i gained. And in some ways, it saved me from the hole I was in, gave me some things to do and less of the "other" things to think about. But like i said, you gotta know when to leave when it's time to.
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I won't be going home for the Holy Week, so this would be a first for me to spend it alone. Hmm, after this...maybe I should try experiencing Christmas alone...the one occassion I still haven't tried being on my own, haha. I'm kidding of course. or am I? Anyways, I'll look for some stuff to do, and since I'm a little short on dough...some soul searching spend free activities may be in order, hahahaha. Ooooh boy...it's gonna be a long summer.
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"They say that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. If I learn to accept that pain is part of life, I will be better able to endure the difficult times and then move on, leaving the pain behind me." -from Courage to Change