BLUE RUIN
by moi

I'm here to erase Clementine.
Like you don't matter.
I want to call this off.
I don't want this anymore.
This mess of sadness. Withered and disappeared.
Empty your home. Empty your life, of Clementine.
Can I kill you for real this time?

Wait. Just wait. Just a while.
I had the best fucking night of my entire life.
It's all falling apart. It's 3 o clock. It's pathetic.
I still thought you were gonna save my life.
Can you hear me? Just for tonight.
Maybe we can. Enjoy it.
I know. I walked out the door.
You know me. Nothing you'll miss.
The nicest guy she ever went out with.
Oddly enough, I miss you.

I have to see the frozen Charles now.
Honeymoon on Ice.
Before I wake up and don't know you anymore.
I'm just happy. I've never felt that before.
I'm just exactly where I wanna be.
Please let me keep this one. Just this one.
How far are you going? We can hide.
Let me show you this one thing...
I'm not perfect. I love you.
It's almost morning.
You can really kill me this time.
It's not real.


Maybe we should end it right here.
It gets frozen this time of year.
I'm crawling out of my skin. I really should go.
You said, "so go!"
I wish you'd stayed. I wish I'd dtayed.
I don't know what to say.
You just took it, without waiting for an answer.
This is the last time I saw you.
I feel like I'm disappearing.
By morning you'll be gone.
Clem, they're erasing you.
Oh, I'm sorry.

This is it.
There's no memory left.
She looks at me like she doesn't even know who i am.
The perfect ending to this piece-of-shit story.

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Writer's note: This poem is in tribute to one of my favorite movies of all time, ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND. The thing i did was to get direct quotes from the movie and jumbled them together to create this piece...I dunno if that means I'm violating any copyright laws though, hehe. Oh yeah, pardon the french too...I'm not really accustomed to using that kind language in speech or writing, but as i said, the lines I used here I got from the movie...:)