There has always been something in silence that seduced me. The quiet things somehow seem more moving, more potent. So much stays in the realm of the unsaid, and after everything else, still so much would remain when we could say all that we can.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
Yesterday was the day I should have died...but then one of ny exams was postponed so it just delayed the inevitable. It was a reeally hectic day...but it had a somewhat happy ending, or rather, the day didn't end at all. But I'll get to that later. After taking my physics finals exam, which I desperately needed to pass, I had to rush back to the venue for the Induction Night club event which I was in charge of. Though the last last minute details were a bit rushed, I think it was a small success. I guess people don't have too many complains so as long as you put something in their mouths. We ended sometime around 10 o'clock pm then esther invited the officers for a round of drinks in Starbucks...her treat. Naturally, no one refused the offer, hehe. So off we went to bond over a couple of frappucinos(<-probably not the right spelling) and kill time...which is always a good thing to do among friends. Most of them had 'curfews' by 11pm so rowelle, kooky, kendrick and I decided to go to eastwood and go on an all-nighter...and that we did. We walked around at first to some bookstores and exhibits then decided to play billiards, but after finding out that the sports bars had a long waiting list, we decided to kill time in some disco/bar called Ipanema. There were a lot of people standing and dancing to the loud music but we just stood around for a while admiring the 'finer' things in life (except fot kooky). Then we decided to sit outside and have a round of drinks. Ken and Rowelle had san mig light, kooky had a Miller and I settled for Iced tea(their eyebrows raising). Then, rowelle starts up this game supposedly done among drinking buddies. it's designed for two people where both persons have ten questions for each person. Since there were four of us, we then had 5 questions for each other, and we could ask anything under the sun...and I mean ANYTHING! And boy, the questions they asked! Plus pwede pang magsama ng corollary or follow-up question from the main question...so mahaba-haba talaga yung usapan. We ended up spilling out information about our 'darker' secrets, our frustrations, some crazy as well as scary experiences that we would have rather left unsaid, buried and forgotten. And at the end of it all, we ended up finding out stuff about each other or divulging stuff about ourselves more than what we wanted to. As for me, i got a closer look and a somewhat inward glimpse of the drive that motivates or haunts these three individuals. But it was also funny how we all tried to corner each other with the barrage of questions which turned out to be more of an interrogation rather than a bonding session, hehe. We were on our way to our respective homes by 6am. I couldn't get to sleep right away, actually, I wasn't sleppy at all. I got to think about the the questions they asked, my responses and their reactions to my response. I always hate the feeling of having to say things but end up feeling like I haven't said anything at all. Or even sometimes, when I think that my ideas to most things are in always constant conflict...I say one thing at one time then later think that maybe that wasn't it at all but something else. I guess, everyone has times they can't figure themselves out...well, probably people can't really figure themselves out at all. period. But if ever I do figure things out...I think that would make a rather interesting entry. Maybe.
Saturday, March 20, 2004
... a few more stuff you could copy, paste and answer:)
FAVORITE BOARD GAME?: power play
FAVORITE MAGAZINE/s?
Reader's Digest
FAVORITE SMELLS?
food, baby scents, vanilla and the beach
FAVORITE PART OF OPPOSITE SEX?
legs, eyes, mouth and hair (on the head!)
FAVORITE SOUND?
rustling winds
BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
being with someone you care about (and they care about you too!)
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
5.0 in the classcard
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
five more minutes... five more minutes of sleep...just five more...zzzz
ROLLER COASTER - SCARY OR EXCITING?
SCARY!
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?:
Usually 2 to 4
FUTURE DAUGHTER'S NAME?:
first name: Annaelle
second name: Beatrize
FUTURE SON'S NAME?:
1st son: james 2nd son: Christian 3rd son: david
FAVORITE FOODS?
SPICY FOODS!!! (Indian, Thai, Spanish, Mexican, Japanese, Italian) Chinese food, lechon, CHOCOLATE!!!
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE?
yup but I don't have a car or a license yet
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?:
nope
STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
cool basta you're wid some pals and you tell just eat and tell scary stories
WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?:
don't have one til now but I want a FRONTIER or an ECLIPSE
IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
laeticia casta
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?:
I don't drink...
WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?:
gemini
WHAT IS YOUR FAVE SONG/BAND? songs/bands/artists
Matchbox 20/ Lene Marlin/ Plumb/"with or without you"/"right here waiting"/"Somebody"
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?:
yep
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD ITBE?
professional athlete (soccer)/comic book artist/ environmentalist explorer
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR?
streaks of blonde
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?:
yes
IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?:
there is nothing in the glass...at all
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SNAPPLE?
the free kind
FAVORITE MOVIES?:
crimson tide, a few good men, lotr, amelie
ARE YOU A LEFTY, RIGHTY, OR AMBIDEXTROUS?:
All of the above! lefty: drawing, billiards, brushing,writng
ambi: punching, table tennis, kicking, badminton, bowling
righty:everything else
DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?:
no
WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?:
dust, dirty picture frames and sometimes dirty laundry
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
5
FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Fear factor, 24, the practice and a buncha funny sitcoms
FAVORITE BOARD GAME?: power play
FAVORITE MAGAZINE/s?
Reader's Digest
FAVORITE SMELLS?
food, baby scents, vanilla and the beach
FAVORITE PART OF OPPOSITE SEX?
legs, eyes, mouth and hair (on the head!)
FAVORITE SOUND?
rustling winds
BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
being with someone you care about (and they care about you too!)
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
5.0 in the classcard
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
five more minutes... five more minutes of sleep...just five more...zzzz
ROLLER COASTER - SCARY OR EXCITING?
SCARY!
HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?:
Usually 2 to 4
FUTURE DAUGHTER'S NAME?:
first name: Annaelle
second name: Beatrize
FUTURE SON'S NAME?:
1st son: james 2nd son: Christian 3rd son: david
FAVORITE FOODS?
SPICY FOODS!!! (Indian, Thai, Spanish, Mexican, Japanese, Italian) Chinese food, lechon, CHOCOLATE!!!
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE?
yup but I don't have a car or a license yet
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?:
nope
STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
cool basta you're wid some pals and you tell just eat and tell scary stories
WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?:
don't have one til now but I want a FRONTIER or an ECLIPSE
IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
laeticia casta
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?:
I don't drink...
WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?:
gemini
WHAT IS YOUR FAVE SONG/BAND? songs/bands/artists
Matchbox 20/ Lene Marlin/ Plumb/"with or without you"/"right here waiting"/"Somebody"
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?:
yep
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD ITBE?
professional athlete (soccer)/comic book artist/ environmentalist explorer
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR?
streaks of blonde
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?:
yes
IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?:
there is nothing in the glass...at all
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SNAPPLE?
the free kind
FAVORITE MOVIES?:
crimson tide, a few good men, lotr, amelie
ARE YOU A LEFTY, RIGHTY, OR AMBIDEXTROUS?:
All of the above! lefty: drawing, billiards, brushing,writng
ambi: punching, table tennis, kicking, badminton, bowling
righty:everything else
DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?:
no
WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?:
dust, dirty picture frames and sometimes dirty laundry
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
5
FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Fear factor, 24, the practice and a buncha funny sitcoms
Friday, March 19, 2004
01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a bathroom
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like George Bush
15. I am cool
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a jacuzzi and a Porsche
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere
20. I can be really really smart (unfortunately, that's not all the time)
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret
23. I hate snow
25. Punk rock rules
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food
28. I would hate to be famous (depends what I'm famous for)
29. I am so not a morning person
30. I wear glasses
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes (or so I think)
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra sometimes
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. I'm left-handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them
40. I don't like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know the national anthem of my country by heart
47. I know more than two languages (trying, at least)
48. I can spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window
50. I live on a ground floor
51. I don't like chocolate
52. I'd like to be more original
53. I've lied a lot of times
54. Cocks are my favorite birds *evil grin*
55. I want to conquer the world (but let other people do it for me)
56. I wonder what happens when I die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter (just the novels.. not all the other extra things)
58. i love my cat. (s)
59. I love to exercise
60. I hate chemistry with a passion and math, too!
61. I love to write but I wish I could be as interesting as some people
62. I like changes
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing with a passion! 66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inch long
68. My favorite color is black (one of, actually)
69. I like to sleep on the floor
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little
72. I should be doing something else rather than doing this
73. I am online a lot
74. I hate government
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good (shocking, ain't it?)
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can
78. I don't trust newspapers
79. I like debating
80. I live in a wagon
81. I clean my room once a month (at least)82. I'm scared of american fast food
83. I have a third eye
84. I love Mozambique
85. I don't trust any religion
86. I used to play with barbies only because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little
88. I like listening to (the) wind chimes
89. I'm very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight or they could be...
91. I earn a lot
92. I don't like spicy food
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I can be very lazy
96. I'm sarcastic more often than not
97. I think my hair can be annoying
98. I could be sensitive
99. I love being "ab-normal"
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a bathroom
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like George Bush
15. I am cool
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a jacuzzi and a Porsche
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere
20. I can be really really smart (unfortunately, that's not all the time)
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret
23. I hate snow
25. Punk rock rules
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food
28. I would hate to be famous (depends what I'm famous for)
29. I am so not a morning person
30. I wear glasses
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes (or so I think)
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra sometimes
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. I'm left-handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them
40. I don't like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know the national anthem of my country by heart
47. I know more than two languages (trying, at least)
48. I can spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window
50. I live on a ground floor
51. I don't like chocolate
52. I'd like to be more original
53. I've lied a lot of times
54. Cocks are my favorite birds *evil grin*
55. I want to conquer the world (but let other people do it for me)
56. I wonder what happens when I die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter (just the novels.. not all the other extra things)
58. i love my cat. (s)
59. I love to exercise
60. I hate chemistry with a passion and math, too!
61. I love to write but I wish I could be as interesting as some people
62. I like changes
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing with a passion! 66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inch long
68. My favorite color is black (one of, actually)
69. I like to sleep on the floor
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little
72. I should be doing something else rather than doing this
73. I am online a lot
74. I hate government
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good (shocking, ain't it?)
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can
78. I don't trust newspapers
79. I like debating
80. I live in a wagon
81. I clean my room once a month (at least)82. I'm scared of american fast food
83. I have a third eye
84. I love Mozambique
85. I don't trust any religion
86. I used to play with barbies only because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little
88. I like listening to (the) wind chimes
89. I'm very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight or they could be...
91. I earn a lot
92. I don't like spicy food
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I can be very lazy
96. I'm sarcastic more often than not
97. I think my hair can be annoying
98. I could be sensitive
99. I love being "ab-normal"